A moment to think...

Everywhere I look...there are waves of nameless darkness..pulling at the edges of my perception...when I look inside myself...there is only me...and the shape of me...the experiences ive had ... the love ive given..the love ive lost...the love I fight for...
Will there be a day of sunshine? Will the clouds of heartache part? Will they let me breath? Will I be able to see..beyond the end of my own nose? Why cant I let this go? Why do I have to be so unreasonable with myself? Why must I fight the logic that tries to pull me away from something so powerful?
I can never understand it...I can only accept it...I must give in...to dreams that realize themselves...one moment at a time...I can only walk the path that I'm on..I may step into another realm of love...that of assurance and security...where I don't have to piece together one thought...one feeling at a time..to make a sensical understanding of the space around me...to look inside and see who I really am....what I really have to give...as I sink into a black sadness that drowns my mind in chaos and my heart in sorrow..as I reach for a woman that is out of reach...her beauty confounds my very being...her power and fire are that not of this reality nor perception for she lives outside of all seemless lines of acceptance...except mine...my mind is burned alive by passion out of my control....still..i must sit here..and burn...for the Valley is closed to all but those who care and dare...
To all but...angels...love...breathless moments of fire and passion...unthinkably powerful feelings swell me into unreal moments of desire...
Yes...I will sit here in the Valley..for she knows where the Valley is...
I will stand .. hand held out in speechless invite...

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